An Interesting Year

This has been an interesting year. By interesting I mean incredibly difficult and yet amazingly endowed with blessings. Sorrow upon sorrow, joy upon joy.

Endings, beginnings and things in process. Tears, laughter, memories, new adventures ahead.

Lessons learned, more yet to come.

Earlier in the year MOMD lost 2 siblings in 2 months.  Of course Mark and Lynn are not lost. In all reality they are in a better place. It is those left behind that feel the loss. Both of them were wonderful men…loved by family and friends. Military veterans. Loving husbands. Terrific Dads/Grandpas. Sorely missed.

April seemed to be going along quite well until the final week. Karen, my only sibling, died suddenly and unexpectedly. Words escape me as I process this void. Loved and missed by MOMD, her nieces and nephews, extended family and childhood friends it sometimes seems incomprehensible that she is no longer available to laugh with about dumb things. She was as quiet as I am noisy, loyal to those she loved, shy and yet she had an opinion or two. I will be writing more about her in upcoming posts.

Grief is a process. Sometimes it slams, at other times it sneaks in. Either way, the healthiest way for me to navigate this is to cry (like now), to laugh, to allow those who have been so gracious to us to nurture us when we didn’t even know what we needed.

MOMD and I are learning so much. There are fabulous transitions ahead, many of which I’ll be sharing in future posts.

If possible, call your siblings, friends, loved ones and let them know you were thinking of them. Forgive quickly. Practice self-care. Dance if you are able.

Gratefulness matters.

 

 

29 comments

  1. Diana. Kohler-Jacques says:

    So sorry to hear this I was in shock myself saw Karen a couple weeks before this happened. Still on my mind.Hope all is good for you right now Been rough year for me doing better right now.Stay strong and happy keep in touch.

  2. Lori Flanary says:

    I’m so very sorry, Cin. Loss of a family member is so hard, especially your sister. Sending love and ❤️thoughts dear friend.

  3. Vicki says:

    I’m so sorry for your lost. Loss is so deep somedays are better than other. Blessed for better days and sad for the others but the Lord holds us strong on those days. Love you. 🙏🏼🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼🙏🏼

  4. Christina Lee says:

    I was writing and walking my dog. Suddenly, what I was writing was gone. Not sure if it got deleted or sent as a partial post. Anyway, it was sad to read about your losses. I’m so sorry. Grief for people we loved deeply seems to last forever. It’s an honor to love someone that deeply and to care so much that you never really fully recover. People who can’t understand that just haven’t loved that deeply. Cherish their lives and cherish that you were able to truly love….

    • Cindi says:

      Thank you Christina. So grateful to have had these (and others) in my life. They each brightened my life in some way and still do as I think about them. Of course they are all missed!

  5. Autumn Anderson says:

    So sorry for your heartache. What a blessing to have shared memories even as you bless us to share this time in reflection. God bless you Cindi.

  6. Catherine A Tellish says:

    My deepest condolences Cindi. I hope your memories sustain you during rough times and bring much joy during quiet time. Reach out to us with your writing. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

    • Cindi says:

      Cathy, thank you for reading and taking the time to let me know you are praying. We are so blessed and have been so nurtured. Writing helps!

  7. Linda Grelles says:

    Dearest Cindi and Bruce,
    I want to say how sorry I am for your losses. Of course there really are no words that can make things better.

    Love to both of you, Linda

    • Cindi says:

      Dear dear Linda, You understand grief and loss. Thank you for reading and for your ongoing support…and for being my zumba buddy. 🙂

  8. Kathy Gagneau says:

    So sorry to hear of all of your losses. Keeping their memories alive will help you pull through. You are in my prayers, my friend.

  9. Lynnie Moisoff says:

    Thanks for posting I also am a bit like Karen and have few words. Your family has touched my life and feel a bit of your pain. Love you cousin praying for you. As you know grief comes in waves. It’s to remind us of those we love and hugs from above. Hugs and love to you

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